NIGHTMARES
When nightmares become reality you finally understand the situation. When the lies and self-delusions are
violently stripped away. Leaving the base whitened bones of once carefully avoided truth. It is so
painful when you realize that what you were taught to believe by societies icons of family, church, and state.
Were carefully taught myths to keep you pacified and content to not ask questions that should have been
asked long ago. Now what do you do without the comfort of candycoated delusion and life looks you
in the face? Carol Wekar 10/18/94
TO THE MAN I SOMEDAY WILL MARRY
I don't need you to pay bills, I get them but barely. When I have to empty mousetraps, I do it with ease,
almost. When the car needs fixing, I call a mechanic. When its time to weatherproof, It only takes
twice the time. When things go bump in the night, I shakily yell "who's there." I need you,
at a sunrise that begs to be shared. When I am lonely and need a loving touch. When Dear Abby makes
a point. When I laugh and when I cry. When I need someone to say "I care." Someone to hold me.
Love isn't always moonlight and fireworks. Love is the ebb and flow of daily life, triumphs and tragedies,
petty irritations, and gentle smiles, shared with your lover, friend, trusted advisor and confident.
I need you for the things that only you can give me. I need you for today and for the tomorrows.
I need you as hopefully you need me. Carol Wekar 9/27/89
|
|
|
|
|
|
IF I UNDERSTOOD ME
If I understood me, how simple life would be. I wouldn't stand scratching my head wondering why I did
this or that. When asked "What were you thinking of?" The answer would be easy to state. I
would understand why I do crazy things, that puzzle me and everyone else. I wouldn't lay awake at night,
trying to figure me out, or hide from those who care and unable to say why. I would understand how
I feel, when things don't go as expected, when I cry for no apparent cause, or angry for no visible reason.
And when I understand me, life will be simpler, For when I understand me, I can start understanding
you. Carol Wekar 10/11/89
DEMONS OF THE NIGHT
Tomorrow always comes But not always sleep Lying awake, fearful and angry waiting for a call or a
knock on the door Hoping for good news knowing no news is good But, oh, the waiting When tomorrow
comes and the demons leave. The fears washed away by the sun rising, the anger replaced by rational
thought Then the pieces of the night are gathered up Placed in a dark corner of the mind Not
remembered but waiting to pounce when let loose by eyes watching dark shadows by a mind left unguarded
lying awake in the night letting the demons run free by Carol Wekar 7/19/89
|
|
|
|